Today marks 8 weeks pregnant for Nikki Craddock! Yes, I am completely excited…but I am also scared that something is going to be wrong when we go for the sonogram on Friday. I just want to know that everything is okay so I can relax a little. I feel like I haven’t relaxed at all this whole pregnancy….that is a full weeks of stress…that is a lot!
I do have a lot of symptoms though, so that is why I am not too nervous. I figure I would not be as sick and nauseated like I am all the time if something was wrong. I mean, I am throwing up/nauseated all the time. There is no break. I cannot put anything in my mind without wanting to puke. If I do not want to puke, I want to sleep. I am exhausted all the time too. Ugh, I just cannot catch a break, but I am trying not to complain about it, because if this is what I have to go through to make sure that the baby is okay….this mama will do it. There is nothing I wouldn’t do right now to make sure this little life inside me is nice and safe for the next 32 weeks. WOW…that sounds like a long time!
WATER WATER WATER. I wish this would make me feel better, but it is also the “death” of me. I know, especially since I am a gastric bypass post op that I need to watch everything I drink to make sure I am hydrated, but it is hard when you just feel like puking 24/7. I am trying though, I really am. I bought a whole bunch of different crystal light packages to put into my water bottles, anything to help me get it down.
Family and Friends….they are the best. Let me tell you though, you really learn who your friends are when you are in the time of need for them. I cannot believe people that I need to turn to in the time of need just walk out of my life….it proves what type of people they really are. It really makes me sad for them, you would think that people would really try to be there, but they really back off. Thank goodness for my close family though, they are there for me more then I need, and I love it. It is something that I really need right now, especially for Friday. Friday is going to be be either a really good day or a really bad day, and I am really nervous for it.
Okay, this mama is going to go try to get some water down and watch Hot Topic’s on the view. Freaking cannot start my day without my girls!