I have been going crazy not having a blog to write in! I didn’t realize how much I missed it until I couldn’t update. i mean, I guess I could of still updated, but it just didn’t feel right when my blog was not working correctly. I am slowly getting it back to normal, but for now this is going to have to do. I have just been way to busy to get it perfect. I promise, it will be soon!
What has Nikki Craddock been up to? Growing a baby, school, being a mommy, maid, cook….you name it. I went through a phase of being so sick for a good 4 weeks. I couldn’t keep pretty much anything down. As of today, I feel better. I know I am not 100% okay, but I am like 97% as of right now. I didn’t realize how bad morning sickness could get until I had it that bad. I had it a lot with Xavier, but not as bad as this time. Weird. Everyone keeps telling me “it is because you are having a girl this time.” Makes me annoyed because no one will respect my thoughts. I keep telling people that I want a nice healthy baby, and maybe I am scared to have a girl because I am so used to Xavier. I do not think people understand that. I try to explain to them and they just keep saying how they want a girl…well they are not the ones raising it. I think I have more fears about this baby than anything. I am not scared of the mommy part, just the differences if it is a girl.
School is going okay. I didn’t realize how hard it was going to be, being pregnant and going to school. I know I can do anything I put my mind to, and I am doing it….but it is hard. I admit, I am having a tough time. I also think it is because summer classes are so fast, and I have to be there so long 2 times a week. I only have 3 weeks left of classes then I have a little break (like 2-3 weeks) and then I start fall classes. Fall classes are going to kick my ass. I have 3 and a lab, and I will be there 4 days a week while my dad watches Xavier all day. I feel bad for having my dad to watch him, but I am super excited that my dad doesn’t mind. This is going to be the only semester that I really have to have someone help me as much as I am going to need help. By the time I am in the nursing program Xavier will be in school all day and the baby can go to daycare. It works out. I am just dreading the next few months…at least they will go fast for the pregnancy!
That is enough about me…I am going to go get ready for this lovely day and study a little bit for my human growth and development class. My big paper is due tonight…I am nervous.