I want food and I want it now!

All I want to do is be able to eat one meal without feeling sick. Seriously, I just want to be able to eat one meal period. I am having the hardest time with this pregnancy and getting in food and most importantly…calories. Normal people are like “aww poor thing needs to eat all day” but if you try to eat all day with a stomach the size of your thumb and whatever you eat throwing your sugar levels off enough to make you sick…it is impossible.

So, I am sitting here almost 17 weeks pregnant and I got in maybe 650 calories so far today, and it is 8:30pm. I bought my favorite Phad Thai for dinner…it smells soo good, I literally eat 2 bites feel full/sick have to wait 1/2 hour until that passes, eat 2 more bites and wait… do you know how hard that is? I just want to eat. I don’t want to eat like a pig either…I want to eat like I did before I was pregnant….slow and gradual and feel good after….now I cannot eat without feeling sick. I seriously am to the point that I dread eating, I wait until I NEED to eat to eat. It is not normal. I no longer have that healthy relationship with food that I learned to have after my Gastric Bypass. I do not like food…at all. I try eating my healthy go to foods and they also make me sick.

I know anyone would like this problem, but when you are pregnant and constantly worry about the baby, it is hard. I should be getting 1000 calories in a day…and I am not and I feel that it is my fault. “If only I could fight through the nausea” I think that all the time as I am trying to force food in my mouth, but it isn’t easy…especially when you know if you eat too much all your going to do is puke, and then you are just back at starting over. *bangs head off the wall*

If anyone has any type of solution besides drinking those shakes (I cannot hold them down, so do not even suggest it) I am open to trying. 23 more weeks of this…I just hope I am normal again after the pregnancy.