In February I had a loss at around 6 weeks pregnant. I do not know if the pregnancy even made it to 6 weeks…the dates were off from the beginning and I just knew deep down something wasn’t adding up. All in all, it was hell…but I got through it. It messed with me, but I got over it, one thing that I didn’t think about was getting pregnant again. I thought I would get pregnant again and it would be fine, a new pregnancy I wouldn’t think about the loss. That is the farthest from the truth and I do not think anyone can understand that unless they have had a loss themselves.

I have a lot of people that keep asking me about the baby and sometimes I just get so overwhelmed because I am 20 weeks pregnant, the baby is healthy and always moving around but I cannot bring myself to get attatched to h...

I am now a little over 20 weeks pregnant! I cannot believe I am able to say that I am halfway through! It feels good…but still scary, I will have a post about that later tonight, because I really do need to talk about that….but this is a happy post! Last week we found out we were having a healthy little BOY! I am super excited because I wanted a boy soo bad! Everyone in my family was sure it was a girl, but I think they wanted a girl for the obvious dresses and pink reason, but not me…I wanted Xavier to have a little brother. I just wanted a boy so bad I couldn’t take it. When I saw “male” being typed out on the screen I was overcome with joy.

What is going on with the pregnancy…I am still 156lbs…LOVE IT! I haven’t gained anything...

So it is around 9:30pm, I just packed Xavier’s lunch for tomorrow and I am packing up my back pack. It might sound crazy, but I am really nervous for the first day of fall classes. I am only taking 3 classes, but this is the first time that my classes are going to be during the day and where I am dropping Xavier off with my dad for about 5-6 hours a day…Mon-Thurs. Seriously, this is more work then I thought it would be and it hasn’t even started yet. I am used to getting up on my own in the morning/afternoon (smile) and just having a day of cleaning and doing my mommy things with Xavier. Now I am going to be getting up very early and have to be out of the house by 10am every morning...

I have been writing a lot of about my gastric bypass journey and how I had to do things before and after surgery. I wanted to post this with my lowest weight before I started gaining a little back with this pregnancy…I know once I start gaining I am not going to want to write about how proud I am of myself and I am 100% not going to want to see the picture of me in a Tankini since I am going to have a bump…! haha.

I have lost a total of 130lbs due to Gastric Bypass Surgery, and a lot of hard work. I do not liking giving my whole thanks to the surgery, because the surgery is just a tool….you can misuse the tool and gain weight and not use the tool correctly. It takes a lot of hard work and determination to use your tool correctly and get the results that you personally want...

Yesterday I got creative and made another Pinterest find. I saw a link to a Sausage Penne Pasta bake a few weeks ago and I bought the stuff and saved it until I knew I would have a busy day. It seemed easy enough to be able to throw together fast and still not have a late dinner. I was right, and I am going to remember this recipe for days like that. It tastes and looks like you spent hours making it, but really it took like 15 minutes to prep and 45 minutes to bake…give or take. Super simple, but super yummy.

I usually am good with going strict with the recipe give or take a few things, but this one I changed up more then usual, just because I had some extra things I wanted to put in and some things I wanted to leave out. So…....

Okay, I know $1 is not that much, but sometimes it gets annoying coming out of your checking account…so I gathered a list of codes for everyone!

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During the first trimester I was so worried if the baby was going to stick, and be healthy I didn’t care about the gender of the baby. I just wanted to know he/she was going to be healthy and happy. Now that I am over 18 weeks and pretty sure everything is okay with the baby I am starting to get excited to find out the gender.

I made my appointment for my big Ultra Sound then got to thinking…how fun would a “gender reveal” party be? I planned everything, I even made the invites to the party...

When I saw this picture and recipe on Pinterest (CAME FROM THIS BLOG) I have to admit, I was intimidated because I never “stuffed chicken” before. I know all you do is slice the middle and add some junk in there and bake, honestly easy right? I think it just sounds hard and I was always scared of it. Well, when I saw this recipe and saw the middle would have to do with cream cheese, I had to make it. Who doesn’t like cream cheese (besides my hubby but I don’t care) haha. Remember, I take no credit for this recipe, I am just a stay at home mom that follows recipes…coming up with them….hahaha….ya right….maybe one day! Please….all credit for this yumminess goes HERE!

Is it hard to make? Honestly NO! It does take time, I probably made it a little harder and time consuming than it should/could ...

All I want to do is be able to eat one meal without feeling sick. Seriously, I just want to be able to eat one meal period. I am having the hardest time with this pregnancy and getting in food and most importantly…calories. Normal people are like “aww poor thing needs to eat all day” but if you try to eat all day with a stomach the size of your thumb and whatever you eat throwing your sugar levels off enough to make you sick…it is impossible.

So, I am sitting here almost 17 weeks pregnant and I got in maybe 650 calories so far today, and it is 8:30pm. I bought my favorite Phad Thai for dinner…it smells soo good, I literally eat 2 bites feel full/sick have to wait 1/2 hour until that passes, eat 2 more bites and wait… do you know how hard that is? I just want to eat...

Before I got pregnant I read a lot of about women getting pregnant after gastric bypass. My doctor does not recommend it until 18 months post op, at least. Do I trust him? Completely. Did I completely listen…almost. I figured a few months off wouldn’t hurt since I am very strict with my diet and exercise and I felt comfortable with my decision. I have read that women have gotten pregnant a few months post op, even a year post op and I always looked at them as irresponsible, not just to themselves but to the baby. I mean, I did this surgery to get healthy, and honestly at the time of surgery my husband and I did not want more kids.

What changed my mind about wanting kids? I was over a year post op and down to almost my goal weight...